Word of the year is......................

accept/acceptance. I need to lear to accept the way things are and the way they are going to be. Show acceptance to my friends and family for who they are.

A new year

wow...it's hard to believe it's 2009 already. Where has time gone. With this new year I am hoping for great things to happen. I should graduate in March and hopefully be working soon after. I am hoping JC gets his act together about his grades and that I can finally quit eating so much damn junk food.

I am so tired of being broke and not being able to buy the food I want and settling for the food I love which we all know is junk food. If I don't stop eating soon, I will tip the scale at 500 lbs. I worry about my weight daily with my high blood pressure. I worry that I could have a stroke in front of my kids or plain just have one and never be able to work or not be the mom I am now. My kids have lost so much in the last couple of years, they need a break from that.

Ok so now that I have gone on and on....I am off. It's only 6:45 am on Saturday and I am on my second load of laundry. Need to get this house clean including my room which could take days to finish before we all go back to school.

Keep us in your thoughts and those of you that pray...please pray we have a good year.

wow...6 months

well, it sure has been a while since I have been on here. Stephanie said I needed to post here. Since she is pretty much the only one that reads this...here it goes!!

I am soon to start my last quarter of college. This comes with excitement and stress!! I am excited to be finished but nervous and stressed about finding a job. The way the economy is going who knows if I will find a job right away. I sure hope so.

JC is getting too big for his britches....he is 12 going on 21. He takes longer to get ready than I do.

Christopher is Christopher....everyday is a challenge but we get thru them.

My grandbabies are wonderful. Cute as can be!!!

Chow~~

Finally done

well I am finally done for the quarter and looking forward to my summer break. Even if the kids drive me nuts. With the price of gas these days, we will be sticking close to home and walking to the lake instead of driving. I need to start exercising again anyhow.

I did not do well on my last two test for my computer classes but I just decided oh well. I know...dont faint. I have been so anal about my grades since I started. I might actually get a B in one of those classes. Haven't had that in a while. I just dont' want to lose my Dean's List status. I think with that, I will graduate with honors. I am not sure so I need to find out.

Got lunch dates for the next two days and then a meeting at JC's school on Friday. Time for the mommy to kick some ass there. No more pushing me around. I will get what I want even if I have to hire a freaking lawyer. Hear me roar.

I'm out...bed time.

Chow~~

UGH!!!!!

I just don't know what to do anymore. I have completely failed at being a mom with JC. I just grounded him until at least school gets out, no phone, no computer, no TV, no social life and threatened to find summer school for him and he still would not to a flippin' book report that is over a week late. He has only read about 18 pages in a month at school. I am sure he thinks I won't follow thru with this all but I will. He now does not get to go to the end of the year school dance. If I can find him a summer school to attend, I am going to continue his grounding until school starts. I guess I will have to find a babysitter for him so Christopher and I could go to the lake or just wait until Joe gets home. My mom said she has a small pool Christopher and I can use at the house to help out. I am so frustrated. Plus I don't really feel like I have anyone I can talk to. Everyone I called is not home and I can only talk to my mom for so long. I feel like such a loser in so many ways right now. I feels like everything is closing in on me right now. I only have two more days of school and I am behind in my computer lab classes. I am having a hard time with Excel and I don't know that I can pass the test I need to take. Fuck I hate my life. It just sucks.

darn

I cannot remember the username and password for this account for some reason. But here I am...it has been a little over a month. So much has happened but when I stop and think of what to write I cannot think of anything.

Juan Carlos is getting so big. He loves to laugh and coo. Anthony is just getting cuter by the day. But let me tell you...boy does he have 4 year old attitude. He will be starting preschool in the fall. We are all excited about that.

It's down to the last two weeks of school and I am cramming. I feel like I am so far behind and I don't know where to start. I am chipping away at it assignment at a time. I have three test to take for one class. I have a 250 point company presentation to get together for June 5th. And the list goes on.

The boys are ok. We have had some challenges with both of them but we are just trying to get thru each day and hope each days goes good.

I am looking forward to having the break over summer but I am hoping I live thru the summer with the boys. I can only hope they don't fight all day like they do now. With the price of gas as it is we won't be getting to do much over the summer either. They will each spend one week at my mom's and then she will take them together for 3 days (we hope). We are all looking forward to our trip to Lake Chelan for my cousin Jenna's wedding. We leave the day Christopher gets out of school. Should be lots of fun.

Time to get back to the homework. Stephanie...don't faint....I actually blogged. LOL

Chow~~

been a while

I know it's been a while since I posted....forgot my damn password again. This also means I have not been able to post to anyone else's blog...damn...old age creeping up on me.

School is crazy this quarter. I always hope each quarter will get easier but no such luck. But I am learning lots and will be a much wiser person when I am done.....yeah go ahead and laugh. I am!!!

Short but sweet...school is calling...gotta run!!

Chow~~