UGH!!!!!

I just don't know what to do anymore. I have completely failed at being a mom with JC. I just grounded him until at least school gets out, no phone, no computer, no TV, no social life and threatened to find summer school for him and he still would not to a flippin' book report that is over a week late. He has only read about 18 pages in a month at school. I am sure he thinks I won't follow thru with this all but I will. He now does not get to go to the end of the year school dance. If I can find him a summer school to attend, I am going to continue his grounding until school starts. I guess I will have to find a babysitter for him so Christopher and I could go to the lake or just wait until Joe gets home. My mom said she has a small pool Christopher and I can use at the house to help out. I am so frustrated. Plus I don't really feel like I have anyone I can talk to. Everyone I called is not home and I can only talk to my mom for so long. I feel like such a loser in so many ways right now. I feels like everything is closing in on me right now. I only have two more days of school and I am behind in my computer lab classes. I am having a hard time with Excel and I don't know that I can pass the test I need to take. Fuck I hate my life. It just sucks.