big fat mommy loser

that pretty much sums up how I am feeling at this moment. I cannot get JC to understand the importance of doing his homework so I have taken everything possible away from him. Phone, myspace, friends and sports. He gets to do nothing until his grades come up. If they don't, well then he won't do anything ever again and I guess this will be one boring summer. Actually he will be home alone with no phones while Christopher and I go have fun.

For the past couple of days I have been feeling extremely fat. I think it is the first time I truely accepted the way I look. I have been watching What Not to Wear all day and it made me realize I really need to work on the way I look. I need to lose weight not only for myself but to be healthy for my kids. I want to be alive in 5 years but I won't be if I continue to eat the way I have been. I watched a show on TLC tonight with Paul Mckenna. I am going to try some of the things he said and see what happens. I need to exercise and I need to make the time (not sure when) but even if it is only for 10 minutes a day.

Had a few meltdowns today but I am hoping those are over. Tomorrow is a new day and I need to work on me and my house. It looks like 10 tornado's went thru it. One step at a time...well I am off for now....be back later and let you know how I am doing.

Chow~~