I think I can blog now

I had some pretty hurt feelings over this power outage and I have needed time to process them. It was hurtful to me to know people who had power did not offer my family a place to stay warm or a place to have a hot meal knowing we are short on money. Then another slap was that my family was not allowed in a home unless the owner was there and they are family. It hurt to know these people did not care enough for my children to help me keep them warm and safe. Hello...we were without power for almost 5 DAYS. My friends who didn't have power were more willing to help us than the ones who had power the whole time except for Lisa but there wasn't much she could do because she lives in Arkansas. But her mom had power before us and she was going to have them help us but about the same time, Tiffany got power so the boys pretty muched lived over there until we got power. I know this may sound petty to some of you but until you are in the situation, you don't understand. When your house is between 30-40 degree's on the inside then you will understand what we went thru.

I would open my house to anyone who needed it normally but after this experience I know who I can count on and who I can't. I have truly never been hurt this deeply. It really cut out a part of my heart and hardened it. But I am determined to not let it get me down anymore. I am starting a new chapter in my life soon and my family is what is important right now. We will get thru the sparse holidays with love!

Now I feel better. I have gotten that off my chest. My mom got a much bigger ear full and there were lots of tears shed on the Saturday Night when we didn't have power but I managed to not shed a tear while typing this so I think I have procesed me feelings pretty good.

That's all for now~